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Dexter is most certainly one of the creepiest, and most unnerving shows I have ever taken the time to watch. And I have to admit, it took me four episodes to begin enjoying it. What happened in the fourth episode? Dexter showed his humanity, showed that he wasn’t entirely cold and mechanic — that he, despite what he thinks, has a heart. And as I’ve gotten into it more (half-way through season one), I find that there is something about this serial killer that we can all relate to. We all hide some part of ourselves from the world for the sake of normality, because we don’t want to have to answer questions about something that is so integral to who we are that we know other people just won’t understand.

Growing up, I have always felt more masculine than feminine, and numerous personality tests I have taken over the years have showed me skewing more toward testosterone tendencies than estrogen (but whether that’s a reflection of my personal perception of myself or reality is another question entirely). I cannot recall ever being distraught by this. However, finding my role in society and, in my relationship with Randy, has taken more time and been more difficult. And as my priorities and goals shift more toward building my own successful family, I find these questions to find their way more to the forefront than before.

I have to admit, not many of my articles from the last three months were categorized as “personal,” and therefore, there are not as many songs in this soundtrack as in others. I will blame this (if any blame is actually necessary, and I don’t think it is) on the brain-killing institution that is school (which I started in September) and on my recent lay-off. It’s been a time to buckle down and not reflect as much. But, luckily, I feel the reflection juices flowing again — so expect some new stuff soon! Soundtrack after the jump!