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You are my sunshine, my only sunshine
January 16, 2009 in Personal · One comment
One year ago today we had to put Cassie down. This is something I wrote a week later at work when I couldn’t think about or focus on anything other than my loss and my grief.
Read more of this article.I’m tired of being a mountain
December 5, 2008 in America, Culture, Personal · One comment
Growing up, I have always felt more masculine than feminine, and numerous personality tests I have taken over the years have showed me skewing more toward testosterone tendencies than estrogen (but whether that’s a reflection of my personal perception of myself or reality is another question entirely). I cannot recall ever being distraught by this. However, finding my role in society and, in my relationship with Randy, has taken more time and been more difficult. And as my priorities and goals shift more toward building my own successful family, I find these questions to find their way more to the forefront than before.
Read more of this article.I won’t go my whole life, telling you I don’t need
August 14, 2008 in Personal, Recommended · No comments
I had an emotional breakdown tonight, which is highly ironic considering my last post. But, like all of my emotional breakdowns, it seemed to be pushed along by a little hormone called estrogen. And, also like all of my emotional breakdowns, a result of something rather important that I have chosen to ignore. Last time, it was how much more important Randy was to me than Russia, and this time it was just how much people stress me out and completely exhaust me.
Read more of this article.And once it started it was harder to tell them apart
August 13, 2008 in Personal · One comment
Do you feel what you think, or think what you feel?
Lately, I’ve been doing my best to be more accurate in terms of when I say “I think” and “I feel.” In reading books like Please Understand Me, I’ve been able to recognize that I often mix up the two. There is a very big difference between what you think and what you feel. However, for someone like me who shows a strong preference for logic over emotion, the two can become indistinguishable — it can be difficult for me to know when I’m actually feeling, and moreover, allow myself to feel when necessary. On the flip side, for someone who shows a strong preference for emotion over logic, it can be difficult for them to distinguish between when they’re actually thinking, or using false logic as a guise for what they feel.
It’s freezing in the loneliest winter
May 6, 2008 in Personal · No comments
Discussing my friendships online is difficult for me, let alone my relationship. I generally feel that these are sacred and extremely private, especially considering no one else understands them aside from those in them with me. But I would be remiss to leave Randy out of this.
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