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I’ve been thinking a lot lately of how difficult it is for me to write on this website as opposed to my previous one. It is much more difficult as my audience is and will be people I know personally. It was one thing to write my thoughts and feelings to the web without really knowing my audience, but I find it is something entirely different to write knowing that people I come in contact with, even on an intermittent basis, will have possibly read.

I woke up this morning imagining my life in three short months — in flux. In three months, I will be preparing to leave for Irkutsk, Russia. I will be packing up my life in a couple of suitcases and saying farewell to my best friends, my love and my family. And as I imagined, I realized that I wasn’t scared, I wasn’t worried, I wasn’t much of anything. It’s such a stark contrast from last year when I thought I was going to Dickinson, I felt that my whole life was changing and I felt unready. But this year, this time, this feels right — it feels like what must happen.