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Here’s the thing about being 19: It sucks. At least for me. (Not like being 20 will magically make things better, though.) I feel like I’m on the verge of so many things coming together, but I’m stuck in the waiting. I’m in a career that won’t really officially be “started” until four years from January when I’ll have a degree. I’ve found someone I want to spend the rest of my life with, but we have/want to wait until finances come more in order. And, most immediately, I’m trying to find a place to move to.

“I can’t wait until the end of June.”

It was an honest enough comment. But coming from him, my breath caught and I automatically said, “Yes you can.” He sighed and clasped my hand tightly. After a moment he voiced, “this sucks.” And I agreed eagerly.

It is far too easy to get caught up in the magnitude of my situation and what lies on the horizon. It is far too easy to obsess over what is coming while forgetting what is before me now. In all of this madness it is, unfortunately, far too easy to lose myself.