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I try not to think about my age much. Whenever I stop and think about the fact that I’m only 19, well, I guess the only “emotion” I can attribute to it is disappointment. I don’t feel 19, I don’t know how old I feel. Part of the issue is that I’ve always felt at least somewhat older than both other people my age and the “adult” world’s perception of people my age. In my current condition (read: career job, going back to school knowing exactly what I want, being at peace with who I am, seeing marriage in my short-term future), I feel leagues older than what American culture seems to think a 19 year old should be. This cultural perception frustrates me.

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Where did all the fire flies go?

August 28, 2008 in Personal · 2 comments

The beginning of spring and the end of summer in Washington always manage to remind me of my childhood in Florida. Something about the lighting, the pattern of sun and rain, some indescribable feeling of the months of May and August always seem to make me nostalgic for the backdrop of the first eight years of my life. Most of the time you’ll hear me say that the only thing I miss about Florida is the thunderstorms. But that’s not true. I miss the road trips. I miss the lazy heat-bathed days. I miss pre-hurricane season when I would prepare my closet to be a hurricane shelter and invariably make my mom mad months later when I had forgotten about it and cockroaches began to swarm.

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Travel like the gypsies living off of any

June 29, 2008 in Personal · No comments

Here I sit in my new apartment after the first night of sleeping in it. My roommate is at the dining table on the computer, our blinds and sliding door are open, the dog is wandering somewhat suspiciously around and it doesn’t really feel like home yet. Often, I catch myself referring to my parents’ house as home and have to stop and take it back.

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In your mausoleum

June 20, 2008 in Personal · No comments

I am moving out. I am signing a lease on Tuesday. I am moving to Shoreline next week. I am no longer going to be living with my parents and siblings after nearly 20 years. This is ridiculous.

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Has he not crossed the seven seas?

June 16, 2008 in America, Locations, Personal, Washington · No comments

On Friday, one of my best friends said we needed a group picture because it might be our last. I shook my head and told her not to say that. But you know what? She might be right. We’re growing up and going our separate ways. While I know we’ll always care about each other and always be around to listen when necessary and laugh at something no one else will get, our times of constant togetherness are coming to a close.

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