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We grip at our hands, we hold just a little tight

November 3, 2008 in Personal, Recommended · No comments

Death is never easy, even when expected. Last week, my fiance’s aunt died after a two month battle against pancreatic cancer. Her decline was rapid, faster than her family was prepared for. But, in the wake of her death, sitting next to my soon-to-be mother-in-law, holding her hand as she looked at her newly departed sister, I couldn’t help but realize as I always do in the near aftermath of someone’s death — it brings people together. And from what little I’ve gathered of Coleen, that’s exactly what she would have wanted.

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You got to buckle up and face that stormy weather, together

October 2, 2008 in America, Locations, Personal, Recommended, Washington · 2 comments

This post is a little late, but I’ve been trying to decide the best angle to approach it from, what specific facet of this major event I wanted to discuss. I’m still not sure, to be entirely honest. But let’s lay it all on the table now before I ramble myself into a hole: I’m engaged. Last weekend Randy and I went up to Bellingham to check out some potential wedding venues. Saturday, between two venues and while looking for crabs at a waterfront park, Randy hid the ring beneath one, and after flipping it over on the pretense of looking for crabs, seeing two and asking, “Why did you have me flip this rock over,” then looking once more to see the ring as he moved to his knee, I found my jaw agape.

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I won’t go my whole life, telling you I don’t need

August 14, 2008 in Personal, Recommended · No comments

I had an emotional breakdown tonight, which is highly ironic considering my last post. But, like all of my emotional breakdowns, it seemed to be pushed along by a little hormone called estrogen. And, also like all of my emotional breakdowns, a result of something rather important that I have chosen to ignore. Last time, it was how much more important Randy was to me than Russia, and this time it was just how much people stress me out and completely exhaust me.

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And if you were an ocean, I’d learn to float

June 12, 2008 in Personal · No comments

Here’s the thing about being 19: It sucks. At least for me. (Not like being 20 will magically make things better, though.) I feel like I’m on the verge of so many things coming together, but I’m stuck in the waiting. I’m in a career that won’t really officially be “started” until four years from January when I’ll have a degree. I’ve found someone I want to spend the rest of my life with, but we have/want to wait until finances come more in order. And, most immediately, I’m trying to find a place to move to.

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It’s freezing in the loneliest winter

May 6, 2008 in Personal · No comments

Discussing my friendships online is difficult for me, let alone my relationship. I generally feel that these are sacred and extremely private, especially considering no one else understands them aside from those in them with me. But I would be remiss to leave Randy out of this.

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