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I have to admit, not many of my articles from the last three months were categorized as “personal,” and therefore, there are not as many songs in this soundtrack as in others. I will blame this (if any blame is actually necessary, and I don’t think it is) on the brain-killing institution that is school (which I started in September) and on my recent lay-off. It’s been a time to buckle down and not reflect as much. But, luckily, I feel the reflection juices flowing again — so expect some new stuff soon! Soundtrack after the jump!

I try not to think about my age much. Whenever I stop and think about the fact that I’m only 19, well, I guess the only “emotion” I can attribute to it is disappointment. I don’t feel 19, I don’t know how old I feel. Part of the issue is that I’ve always felt at least somewhat older than both other people my age and the “adult” world’s perception of people my age. In my current condition (read: career job, going back to school knowing exactly what I want, being at peace with who I am, seeing marriage in my short-term future), I feel leagues older than what American culture seems to think a 19 year old should be. This cultural perception frustrates me.